Is it influnce or what I believe?
I love my life the way it is right now, but I did cut myself short by not living on my own for a while to figure out what my faith is all about, what my values are, and how to deal with someone that doesn’t agree with my faith and values. I went straight from a conservative Christian home with my parents to a judgmental and dislike towards Christians home with my husband. It’s like going from one side of the spectrum to all the way to other side. I do have a faith and when you believe in something like I do you deal with it on a daily basis. To draw you a picture it’s like that angel and devil on your shoulder. My parent’s being one and my husband being the other (not going to specify because they switch sides depending the issue). When I hear peoples views on my faith constantly I start to get confused. Where does my belief values for my faith start and my parents’ and my husband’s end? Both sides think the other one influences me greatly and they’re right. David’s right in the sense that my parent’s have been taking me to church my whole life so they have 19 years of influence over me. My parent’s are right because David is the man I love and I will be with him for the rest of my life so he’ll have influence over me until one of us dies. The problem that I would like to fix is for me to figure out what part of my faith is influenced and what part of my faith is from what I believe. When I lived with my parent’s I couldn’t get out of going to church, now living with David I haven’t been to church since we got married. I know that I'm somewhere in-between my parent’s and David when it comes to my faith, but how do I even start to act on my faith when I have this struggle of influence? It’s completely overwhelming.
posted by Michelle @ 12:26 PM
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Some suggestions to figure stuff out is to read and write. Journal what you are thinking and feeling, also what you are learning. Ask yourself questions about what you believe. Be sure to chanllenge yourself. Spend some time meditating.
Some suggestions in addition to Trissa's...as new age-y as this is going to sound..do and live what you feel. Questions like these are not answered quickly...they take a lifetime to wrestle with. The thing about it is...they will always change. I don't think you can necessarily pinpoint what you believe but you can pinpoint how you live...what you live is what you believe. Find the things that you want to live and walk out.
Personally through my experience of not going to church over the last 8 months made it easier to filter out what I believe. Carter is an amazing support and has helped me to realize that I do indeed have a strong foundation in my faith. However, my values and how I live out that faith has greatly changed over the years and how I live it out in my marriage.
The key is to find what you value and live it. If you value love..live it. If you value compassion...live it. The most important thing is to live it.
kat
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