Every once in a while I have spurts of sadness. Tonight I am sad. I am sad that I just graduated because all I know is how to be a student and I don't know what it will be like not to be one. I am sad that my relationship with my parents is not the same anymore. When I lived with them alone for four years I would do everything with them. Instead of going out with friends on a Friday or Saturday night I would be out with my parents. I'll never have that same relationship with them because I'll never live with them alone again. I am sad because I realized that I should of sent one of my friends a card or given her call after she got out of the hospital. I am sad because I miss my grandmother. I am sad because life keeps pulling me forward before I'm ready for it. I am sad for all the lost friends, lost relationships, and lost occasions that I will never have again.

I'm sorry if this entry also made whoever read this sad.